Monday, June 29, 2009

Blog Abandon?! Maybe? Maybe not!

It been been more than a year since I last post in this cooking/food blog. Recently, I been thinking is this blog going to be one of those millions of blogs whereby the new blogger that started many postings with zest and end with abandonment due to lack of interest or drive. These thoughts had got me to post again as I do not want this blog to fall in this category.

Many things had happened during this period had left me burnout and depress. Life really have more downs than ups that even those strong will eventually fall, the optimist will become pessimist eventually. While those issues might look superficial to others, but the actual person who is going through it have the hardest hit. It is hard to juggle life, work, study and family as a single. I always admired those can do it single-handedly with ease.

Being single in Singapore is more of curse as Government does not acknowledge your contributions as Singles don't get much incentives when comes to rebates, taxes and housing rebate. Where is the "equality" in the National Pledge that was read out with fervour by every Singaporean. Is all this for show or "wayang" to give people false sense of belonging? I think the top honcho in the Singapore government have the answer for it.

I had a friend who is single working in education sector always being "arrow" for those ardous tasks. This had left my friend drain, burn-out as there seem to be no light at the end of the tunnel as he is the only single in the school. He is left with no choice but to leave this profession. I'm in similar predicament as my friend however, unlike him being a worrywort and concious of the impact of my actions have on my family members. I couldn't take the leap like him. Until now it is still eating me up, I still feel so lost without any sense of direction what I want to do with my life just like a living corpse.

However, my interest in cooking still remains as it is the only hobby that still keeping me sane. I hope to find strength to post a few more entries.